ooooOOOOOoooooo
-at the posh haunted castle lounge-
Our stoic waiter brings us the bill.
I pull the small table lamp under my face so it illuminates my chin and make my eyes really big
Me: oooOOOOoooo!
Her: Haha! So is $2 enough of a tip for one drink? This place is nice
Me: I'm not sure...he did bring us those print outs of the ghost stories....
Her: Haha ya! Thanks for that! I'll never sleep again now!
Our stoic waiter brings us the bill.
I pull the small table lamp under my face so it illuminates my chin and make my eyes really big
Me: oooOOOOoooo!
Her: Haha! So is $2 enough of a tip for one drink? This place is nice
Me: I'm not sure...he did bring us those print outs of the ghost stories....
Her: Haha ya! Thanks for that! I'll never sleep again now!
you are free
When I was a fruitarian I discovered something in myself.
I am not sure if it's the euphoric bliss of sugar-high or in fact because I was not eating meat products that are full of fear and sadness. (Or was it a sudden surge of maturity?!)
But either way, I discovered that if I truly loved the person I was with I would want them to leave or stay purely based on their happiness...open palms.
I loved my ex-girlfriend.
And when we broke up I was a disaster.
But now it's been a while and there is some distance....
I am having the same feeling:
I want her to be happy even if that means we aren't together.
That is what true love is.
So wherever she is, whatever she is doing, I sincerely hope she is happy.
She was one of the greatest people I ever dated.
She made me want to be a better person.
And she is free as a bird.
As we both always were.
Clutter
Dug out my winter clothes today.
Which led to me cleaning out my closet.
Like REALLY cleaning out my closet.
And finding some great things buried in there.
And finding some great things buried in there.
Why am I keeping stuff that brings back memories of bad times?
I actually have an entire section of my closet which I have been avoiding because there is 1 shirt over there which reminds me of something awful. Get rid of it girl! Seriously.
And then I started feeling guilty for getting rid of stuff.
BUT then I thought more and realized by keeping stuff I am never EVER going to wear I am actually being selfish because someone else could be using it to keep warm in this winter.
I am lucky enough to work in fashion design and always have a plethora of clothes.
I have so many winter clothes...lots of old ones that are kinda beat.....I want to go out tonight and give them to homeless people.
Need to find a big burly friend to come with me and protect me.
Any takers?
....I guess I could take Bettie.
My niece
-on the phone-
My niece(adorable 3 year old voice): What are you painting?
Me: A portrait of a person
Her Mom: What colour is it?
Me: Black and white
Her Mom: What is your favourite colour?
My niece: RAINBOW!
Hahaha, this kid is awesome!
Lesbian Obscura
Friday night:
Me: I want to go to 3 art shows and drink wine!
Myself: I want to clean up my apartment and dance around to Camera Obscura!
Oh, you don't know them? (Here you go!)
I: Want to chill and snuggle with my puppy and watch bad TV shows in flannel pyjamas!
So many choices, bah!
15
I'm 15.
We lay on her bed.
We watch a movie on her tiny TV.
She has short pixie hair.
I know she's gay.
She knows I know she's gay.
She knows I know that people know she has a crush on me and told me.
Does she know that I think I know that she knows it's hard to breathe in her room?
My arm almost brushes her arm.
I have no idea what is going on in this movie.
We lay on her bed.
We watch a movie on her tiny TV.
She has short pixie hair.
I know she's gay.
She knows I know she's gay.
She knows I know that people know she has a crush on me and told me.
Does she know that I think I know that she knows it's hard to breathe in her room?
My arm almost brushes her arm.
I have no idea what is going on in this movie.
